Time, Growth, Life, and Love

Hello world, it has been so long since my last update. I fear i have made this for no reason at all. My life has however been extreamly busy and it has been hard to find time for the ones I love; let alone school work and my two jobs. A lot has happend since writeing last. I have moved from Plymouth to Derry into a three bedroom apt. I have one roomate as of this point in time but we are rarely in the same place at the same time so things are pritty quiet. I am currently still in school finishing my masters in art education. This has taken up much of my time and energy. I have been commuteing fifty min there and fifty min back every day this week and all of next week for a curriculum design course that is the culminateing course before I start my student teaching in August. the other class im in right now is a self designed graduate sculpture course. this is both daughnting and exciteing. i have not had much or any chance rather to create art in months. So when I finnaly fgo this course approved I was anxious to being createing sculptures again. this is a relaxing and poitive thing for me. but at the same time it is difficult to get back into the swing of creativity, it is like a muscle "use it or loose it" baby. I will have to update with some pictures of my new work but for now here are some pictures from my BFA...

As my birthday approaches this august I think greatly about time and its passing. Indefinitely it will continue and it bares down on me. I have always felt a connection to things that were old or had a feeling of nostalgia. I feel like I am searching for something that will pull me into a time I am unfamiliar with. I don't think I want to look back but rather to learn something from it. "History is doomed to repeat itself" this is a phrase that can be discounted when we learn something from the mistakes of the past. This is something that I face. I want to grow as a man, and to learn from my mistakes. I need to for myself and the one I love. I have been nervous lately. I analyze things constantly and this often gets me into trouble. worrying about the wrong things or pushing others to hard. My determination and drive will make things right. I am going to start meditation to gather my thoughts. It is an effective way of looking internally at ones self and assessing in order to grow, and I will grow.

The song "simple man" by Lynard Skynard sums up my feelings to a degree. The idea that by living honestly and simply ones troubles and worries will seem less important because positivity will prevail. I am an honest and hardworking person but most recently I have let myself get worried about things that I have no control over. I have found myself having to place more faith in others and hoping that love and honor will prevail. If i belive and i do, then everything should fallow.These times are trying but there is a light at the end of every tunnel and my light has a face and a name. I will be a better person as I grow, learn and continue to love.

This past year was hard emotionally, this one will be mental and physical I'm sure of it. However I remain positive and push forward towards my goals. Till next time... Love those around you, be good to one another, and go into your light.